Monday, January 3, 2011

Reflextions & Resolutions

As the new year begins, we often reflect on the year that has just passed.  I've never been good at keeping my New Years resolutions, but I am gonna try like I never have before.

So what ARE my resolutions?  How much time do you have?  OK,OK, seriously I do have a few, but I'll just bore you with the big ones.  First is getting back into the healthy lifestyle I lived before Robert died.  I am one of those people who have always struggled with weight.  I know what I need to do to stay healthy,but the past 2 years I've been in a self loathing mode.  Eating & drinking too much.  Not exercising at all.  I know I can do, I've done it a few times in my life & I always feel so much better physically & emotionally when I am at a healthier weight. 

Since I am pregnant, I cannot hit the gym like I'd like, but I will have the healthiest pregnancy to date.  I have to.  I have been blessed with this baby & I am going to do all I can to achieve that. The doctor has told me I cannot gain more than 20lbs this time around.  That is gonna be tough.  With both The Princess & Robert I gained 50lbs.  When I got pregnant with both of them I was at a weight my body was comfortable with.  I was going to the gym a lot.  With this baby, I was the heaviest I have ever been in my life, well over 200lbs.  I had actually lost a little bit of weight right before I found out about this little Jelly Bean,but still weighted more then I did both times I delivered.  It's gonna be tough, but this is a big one I need to keep.

Another resolution is more of a goal.  Last year I decided I wanted to run a 5k...well a 5k in Walt Disney World.  I let my grief, depression & anxiety run my life.I know this is not something that I may accomplish before 2011 ends, but I want to be on my way to achieving it.  Once the baby is born, diet, exercise & training will be #1 ~ after family of course!

Lastly, I want to be a better blogger.  Blogging has been such wonderful & Free therapy for me.  Through blogging I have found some wonderful people out there on the Internet who have given me such hope & encouragement.  If I can help someone by sharing my story the way my Internet friends have helped me this will all be worth it.


  1. Thank you for sharing Robert's story. I was so happy to read about your pregnancy - just wanted to check in. Hope all is well. Sending you peace. Take care.

  2. Just wondering how you're doing.. :))