Tuesday, September 28, 2010

And so it begins

Tomorrow is Robert's 3rd birthday, but I am already a hot mess!  Today started out with tears & anxiety.  If I am this bad today, what will I be like tomorrow?

Last year was pretty low key, but this year I decided we should have a birthday party for our angel.  Maybe that was a bad idea ~ only time will tell.  I thought it would be good for the "babies" (Bubby's brother, sister & his cousins).  So we will be BBQing, having bday cake & sending balloons to heaven for Robert's party there.

Hopefully I can make it through tomorrow.


  1. My heart goes out to you and your family. My daughter (3 weeks old) died today in 1971. I still grieve for her.

    As you have no doubt learned the pain never goes away it just changes.

    Please accept extreme empathy from a fellow member of the worlds most undesirable club.

  2. Happy birthday to your Robert and to you, the one that birthed him. That is something that deserves to be celebrated too.

  3. Sending you some love and hugs today. I am so sorry for your loss and I hope you have a beautiful birthday celebration today.

  4. visiting from Aunt Becky's place. My thoughts are with you all the way from Vancouver, Canada.

  5. Happy Birthday to your baby boy. I hope that the celebration went well - whatever you decided to do is the right decision (at least that is what people have told me in the past). Thank you for sharing your story. Take care.